I have never seen her in concert before but almost every girl worldwide can relate to her songs and I'm no exception. Her songs deal with situations that we have all at some point been through. Sitting there and listening to her lyrics made me think about my life and what I want. I'm tired of "falling" for the wrong guys who at the time seem so right but when in reality don't deserve me. Conceited to say... Maybe? But if you walked in my shoes for the past couple of months you'd agree. Being blind to just how bad a person really is for you just to keep him there. I'm done with that... And I'm done with him! I know he thinks that a few weeks or a couple of months down the road I'm going to "come back to him" because unfortunately I've been stupid enough to do so before. However, why keep fighting for a friendship or anything if the other person won't. Pointless right?
I used to be full of dreams and fearless... I miss that in myself. I know what I want, I know where I want my life to take me... I want to relearn who I am and after that find someone who is willing to "fight" for me and isn't afraid to feel. I have some dreams and some goals... But I want much more!
First I have to let go of some things, some memories and my one true regret which I think at this point is just letting the person I was talking about earlier into my life at all. Let go of all resentment and hurt and dislike. Some will be bittersweet to part with. But it is a must!
I'm done just going day to day... I wanna live!
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