What to do.....

It's 4 a.m. And I can't fall asleep to save my life. My mind feels like it is running at full speed. There is do much going on in my thoughts... I hate feeling this way. For the past two days, I have been just a ball of anger. Unavoidably so since it was the result of someone else's very selfish and ignorant actions. You put so much faith in people only to be disappointed in the end... Like the person they have been anytime they were with you for the past 7 months or so is not who they truly are. That they are indeed the selfish, conceited, dishonest person that everyone told you they were to begin with. One if those things that your head could see as true but that your heart doesn't want to listen too.

You always want to see the good in people... But if they don't see it in themselves... What's the point? It's a waste of time to believe in someone who seems perfectly fine to not be living up to their potential... Who's fine being a lesser person than what they could be. I see this so often... And it's sad! Yet there's nothing I can really do about it.

I just wish people would be who they are from the beginning or possibly just walk around with a sign around their neck telling you what they are for real. No lies... No cheating... No fake ness! Just them in truth. Because when you base your expectations based on them being or acting a certain way... How can they be so angry when you expect that from then on out?


So many questions... And doubts... And uncertainties!






Honestly.. Where do I go from here?